Lost
My life is defined by my children. That has always been the case. From the time the first one came into this world, nearly 13 years ago, my life was changed forever. Every heart beat my heart squeaks out is for my children.
Now, with that being said, it doesn’t mean I don’t want anything ELSE in my life. I do not spend 24/7 with them and them alone. I need my time alone, doing other things, or just regaining my thoughts.
But my life is devoted completely to my children. Schooling them, feeding them, dressing them, bringing them up with morals and common sense. Bringing them up to be independant, compassionate and caring. Keeping them safe, letting them grow.
Now I find myself being torn into pieces. I feel as though my heart is bring pulled from my chest. My soul is shattered. I have no idea how I will be able to pull together what could possibly be left of my relationship after what has gone on.
I’m lost.
